Hey guys! So I am back, just like I promised. I am not sure what exactly to write about, so bear with me.
Over the last few days, since I got under 300 I have noticed my self wanting to slip on my food. Trying to justify having a little more here or there, or a bite or two. I know if I allow my self that one bite, it will never stop and it would snowball into a full blown binge. That is exactly what has happened every time I have gotten under 300 before, and my weight has ended up skyrocketing. Honestly, that terrifies me, I am not going to let that happen again. But just the thought of getting back up to that weight is overwhelming and scary. And of course when I feel scared or overwhelmed, what do I want to do?
So as you see I have worked my self into quite the predicament. Recently, I have been much more aware of my self and the thoughts that pass through my mind on a daily basis. That is something new. I have noticed when I am getting close to a binger, or just getting close to eating something bad I have been able to turn that around by saying to my self that it won’t be worth it, or just reminding my self of my goal and how that one bite will make my end goal that harder to reach. I think the next step for me is finding that replacement for food, turning the bad habit into a good one, and I have a feeling I will find that at the gym, the trick is just getting my self there. So, next time I report to you, I will have been to the gym at least twice!
See You On Friday!