So it is Tuesday again! For some reason I thought these posts were due on Wednesday…not Tuesday. So here I was, thinking that I had a whole additional day to write this thing! Alas, that is not true, and my nasty habit of procrastination wins again.
I have noticed that I have had a hard time getting my self to the gym. As in I have gone once since Friday…not a good start. I don’t know what it is. I have every intention of going, but by the end of the work day, I just go home and go to sleep. There is a gym at my work and I walk right past it and go home! All of this leads to is me being upset and very mean to myself and wanting to turn to any and all food that would be bad for me. Ultimately, this is the absolute last thing that I want. I have managed to keep losing and to stay under 300 for over a week now, which is the longest I ever have and I don’t intend to test that record.
I have made it this far, and I have changed my eating habits, which is one of the hardest things I have ever done, It’s by no means over though. I still find my self struggling with my food at every meal, but the point is that I did it. Knowing that I was able to change my eating habits, gives me the hope and reassurance that I can keep going and I can change my lifestyle habits as well.
When ever I have gone to the gym habitually, I always feel better. Both mentally and physically. I have more energy and make better choices because I am actively working to be healthy and working to move forward. And not to mention, the weight drops off much faster. So, like I have promised to blog 3 times a week and be vigilant on my food, I am now making a promise to my self, and to all of you. I will be at the gym, for at least 30 minutes, 5 days a week. There it is. Part of me doesn’t want to press publish. Because if I do, I know that I will have to follow through and keep this promise. And it would be a lie if I said that there wasn’t a part of me that wanted to go back to my old habits, because I had no responsibility. But thats not really want I want anymore. I have just begun to taste health and know what being healthy feels like and I don’t, and won’t, go back to killing my self. Because I feel a thousand times better right now, than I ever have before.
I will see you guys on friday for another update, and by then I should also have a video up on my youtube channel!