My Mom’s Birthday

I made my self get out of bed toady, so thats a good thing. I am currently sitting at the starbucks right across from the beach and I didn’t want to get out. But I knew I needed to Screen Shot 2016-03-28 at 11.22.43 AMor I would waste the day away and regret it. As you can tell this isn’t going to be a big blog post, or one of those pre written ones. I promised to be here 3 times a weeks so here I am, and I feel sad. Thats just how it is and I am letting my self feel it. Despite my chaotic childhood and how much I went through with my mom, that doesn’t change how much I love her and I wish I could see here.


I feel like sometimes I present her like a villain or something, when really she was sick,

Screen Shot 2016-03-28 at 11.24.08 AMreally sick and had a life I wouldn’t wish on my greatest enemy. Somehow despite all of this, she did her best to raise me and loved me more that anything, that I know to be true. She tired her hardest to be the best mom she knew how, and I will always love her. I learned so many positive things from here and I think if there is any day to remember those, today is that day. Maybe I’ll share those in the future, but for now I am just going to sit here and remember those things, and keep them close.



I hope you all are having an amazing day


Author: Ruzele

I am a twenty-six year old lifestyle & health blogger / YouTuber living in Orange County California. From documenting my weight loss of 150 pounds to everyday life/healthy living, my content covers a range of topics and issues! Want to chat? Send me an email!

4 thoughts

  1. Thank you for recognizing that your mom did the best she could… This was a New Year’s resolution of mine one year: “do the best you can, with what you’ve got, where you are.” Doing our personal best – whatever that is for the day – is really all we get to work with.

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  2. My mom died when I was 23. She was 56. Stage 4 cancer. Decided to have surgery despite our (me and my sister) wishes. Died 6 weeks later. Losing your mother that young is devastating. Nothing is ever really the same of course. And, it really cuts you off from an area where most of us have some sort of issue. I mean, you can never really “resolve” it because the person is dead. I think almost everyone has some issues with their mother. Anyway, thank you for being open enough to share all this. I know it’s hard but you’re doing so well.

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    1. I’m sorry that you had to go through that, it really is hard to explain to someone who hasn’t been through it, thank you for sharing! It is always nice to hear from people who understand, makes you feel less alone, thank you for your support 🙂

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