I made my self get out of bed toady, so thats a good thing. I am currently sitting at the starbucks right across from the beach and I didn’t want to get out. But I knew I needed to or I would waste the day away and regret it. As you can tell this isn’t going to be a big blog post, or one of those pre written ones. I promised to be here 3 times a weeks so here I am, and I feel sad. Thats just how it is and I am letting my self feel it. Despite my chaotic childhood and how much I went through with my mom, that doesn’t change how much I love her and I wish I could see here.
I feel like sometimes I present her like a villain or something, when really she was sick,
really sick and had a life I wouldn’t wish on my greatest enemy. Somehow despite all of this, she did her best to raise me and loved me more that anything, that I know to be true. She tired her hardest to be the best mom she knew how, and I will always love her. I learned so many positive things from here and I think if there is any day to remember those, today is that day. Maybe I’ll share those in the future, but for now I am just going to sit here and remember those things, and keep them close.
I hope you all are having an amazing day