I hope you all are doing AWESOME! This week has taken a really positive direction for me! I don’t know if it is just my attitude or what but I feel like I am fully on track again! As you guys know I had a hard time adjusting back when I came home from my trip. I was so prepared for the trip that I didn’t prepare for coming home? I’m not totally sure, but after a slip up earlier this week and some serious introspection I finally feel I am back to normal, or My New Normal (see what I did there? 😉 ).
Going back to earlier this week, I had some friends over and we ended up talking about some pretty deep stuff. Things I haven’t openly talked about with people outside of my family, I don’t think ever. This understandably brought up some feelings, and some of my older, food addictive, behaviors. I ended up eating a few things I shouldn’t have, which made me realize that I need to dedicate more time to changing my relationship with food. And work on how I react to certain situations so I don’t end up doing the same thing over and over, or letting my self get to a point where I am binging on copious amounts of food and ultimately hurting my self.
This is so embarrassing.
Long story short, I woke up Saturday morning around 3am with some of the worst pain and discomfort I have ever felt. I didn’t know what was wrong, but I know something was off so my Aunt ended up taking me to the emergency room. After talking to the doctor about what had gone on the night before we realized that what I was feeling was a bad case of GERD. They ended up giving me and IV GI cocktail and after about 30 minutes I felt back to normal. So I was in the ER….for heartburn. Yes, I feel stupid and embarrassed about this! But its life, there is nothing I can do but move on and realize that there is no such thing as perfect and I just got the opportunity to learn a lot more about my self from this.
What amazes me even more is that I used to binge on family sized portions of those foods,! In one sitting I would have enough to feed a small army, and never felt anything like that. I guess that goes to show just how much I have changed. And how the alterations I have made to my life, change how my body reacts. Cleary my body was saying never to eat those foods again and I will listen good and hard to it! So, embarrassing experience and all, I kept going with my day! I powered through the day and work, whereas if this was a year ago I would have used this as an excuse to call out sick and lay in bed all day. But I made it and feel 1000X better then I would have if I stayed at home!
I worked out in the gym today for the first time since leaving on my trip and it was amazing! I wore the same outfit I have worn over and over again, but I looked smaller, and I felt like a different person! I was able to run at a 6.0 pace, 3.5 incline, for 30 seconds with out stopping! This may not seem like much, but this is something I have never been able to do, and it was relatively easy! For the first time I wasn’t scared to increase the speed or incline. I wanted to see how far I could push my self and it was such a cool experience. I feel like I am finally becoming…me!
Also! I created a Facebook community page to keep track of all my accounts and goings on, so if you want to take a look and give it a like, here is the link! https://www.facebook.com/MeltingZele/
I also entered the Optifast New Year New You contest! They notify the winner on July 15th so I am keeping my fingers crossed! It would be such a cool oportinuty to win and it would make for some pretty awesome blog posts!
Do you guys have any embarrassing stories? Tell me below! Let me know I am not alone! Haha! Thank you for your support, it seriously means the WORLD to me! See you on Wednesday for my weigh in!