So if you haven’t noticed, gratitutde has been a hot topic for the past few posts. Its something that has been on my mind quite a lot recently. Its something I haven’t always used.
As a child and teenager I was so overwhelmed every minute with not only my own addiction to food, but then dealing with my mothers mental illness and addictions. I didn’t have time to understand what I had, let alone be grateful for it. I was wrapped up in a cycle of self pity, only focusing on what I didn’t have. That is not a good place to be.
In some ways I am grateful for being in that place, because now I realize just how much I have to be grateful for. It’s not like I didn’t have things to be grateful for, I chose not to recognize them. It wasn’t until the death of my mother that I realized I spent so much time focusing on what I didn’t have and how that was hurting me.
So while I didn’t have the “picture perfect mother or father” or the “ideal childhood”. I had people around me that cared about me and I wasn’t able to see that in the moment. I went through a lot as a child, but I was blessed with more good people than bad. It’s hard because sometimes those bad people leave more of a mark than the good in the moment.
I want to say how grateful I am for the people that were around me as a kid, and teenager. I am sorry that I didn’t recognize everything you all did for me, I hope you know I am so grateful for every single one of you!
I am lucky that now I am able to be grateful for things in the moment. I am so incredibly grateful for this online weight loss/health community I have found, that has accepted me and supported me along this journey. Just this morning one of my youtube/Instagram/weight loss inspirations posted about me on her Instagram! Little old me being on LoseItLikeLaurens Instagram!
I was in total shock and would be lying if I said I didn’t shed a few (happy) tears over this!
Would it be going to far to say I am grateful for being able to be grateful? I think i am getting carried away!
What has been on your mind this week? Have you doing anything to push yourself? let me know below! See you on Monday!