Mind Dump: When I Am Doing Less Than I Should

Hey everyone!

It’s been a while since I just sat down and talked about what’s been going on with me. That’s something I did at the begging of my journey, and I think it helped me cope with the times when I was struggling. It helped me not go to food, so that is why I am here today!

Saying  I have struggled is an understatement. Not only did I struggle, but I didn’t reach out to anyone for help or advice, or to just talk about what’s going on. That literally fed my bad behavior and allowed me to continue on lying to myself! This resulted in a gain this week.

If you guys haven’t kept up with my weigh in’s on insta or my youtube channel, I have been on a plateau around 218 for MONTHS! and this week I weighed in at 219. I would be lying if I said this didn’t upset me, it does, but that being said I know dwelling and getting stuck in negative emotions will do nothing, but keep me where I have been!

This past week I scared myself, I reminded myself of who I used to be and it feels like I took multiple steps backwards. That is the last thing I will let happen. I will not allow myself to go back to who I used to be! So I have been taking a break from Instagram, I am still there and posting, but I am not going to overthinking my posts, or pre-write them, or attempt to present myself as someone who has their shit together because I don’t and that is OK! I am figuring that out!

I have been taking a look at what I did at the beginning of this journey because I was really successful at the beginning! And I have noticed a few things. I was on here a lot, not planning out posts, but just writing! I think that aided me more than I thought with coping with stress and my desire to go to food, I also asked for advice and help. I think as I have gotten further along I have shied away from that because I want to look like I know what I am doing, and more people have looked to me on what to do and I think I let myself feel pressure to be “perfect” or know the answers. But the truth is, I know what works for me and that’s all I can speak for!

I hope some of this has made sense to you guys haha. I can say it has helped me, just to get this out! I have a gameplan in place for this week, which includes

I have a gameplan in place for this week, which includes reminders for tracking my food and thinking positively planned workouts, I have turned off notifications from Instagram and all social media so it’s not constantly on my mind! I am also not taking my debit card with me anywhere! I am not going to carry around something that makes it soooo much easier to eat bad food, I have also deleted my Starbucks app and am going cold turkey on Starbucks for a while because I found myself getting things at there that were not good for me.

Implementing this plan just yesterday and today has already helped me so much! I feel much more positive and optimistic than I did. I also feel that motivation I have lacked for a while coming back, and eating bad food is starting to seem like less of an option for me!

I hope you guys are doing great, it’s really nice being here and just chatting!

I am considering hosting a diet bet next month, let me know if that is something you guys would enjoy!

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Author: Ruzele

I am a twenty-six year old lifestyle & health blogger / YouTuber living in Orange County California. From documenting my weight loss of 150 pounds to everyday life/healthy living, my content covers a range of topics and issues! Want to chat? Send me an email!

7 thoughts

  1. Stay strong! You can achieve anything you put your mind to! You have come so far & it’s so nice to read how positive you are. Do whatever helps you gurl, going cold turkey on Starbucks, switching off notifications nothing comes before your goal! We’re all with you! 💋

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  2. I am not usually someone who responds on blogs but I have have felt stalled for a bit myself and this really speaks to me. I could definitely be interested in a dietbet next month. Your plan seems solid this week. Channel your new enthusiasm.


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