Wow I know it’s been quite a while since I have taken time to post on here. I have really missed it! Continually I have struggled with finding “balance” in life, which I think looks different for everyone. I am still in school, over the past 2 semesters I have overwhelmed myself with a full course-load and full-time work. I pretty much worked myself to the point that I was sick and exhausted. I was so busy with school and work, that I didn’t give myself time to just be. I gained 10 pounds, was eating really unhealthy and not working out, most importantly I wasn’t paying any attention to my mental health.
This stems from persistent depression and anxiety as a teen and young adult. I was so sad, and angry, and scared of everything that I didn’t do anything. I would spend months of my life in bed, watching tv, and eating. I wasn’t living, I was barely existing. Living through this, I never want to go back to that place again and I think my extremely hectic schedule the past year was my way of comabtting that. In turn, I just rubberbanded and made myself pretty much the same amount of depressed and food-addicted, the only difference was I was running around like a chicken with it’s head chopped off. Never able to give any aspect of my life the attention it needed to thrive and grow.
Considering I am writing this, that must mean I have changed right? RIGHT! I have just started my next semester and am only going to school part time, taking a little more than half the credits of last. I am still working full time, but making sure to plan time to do things I love like working out, going to concerts, hanging out with friedns (yes, I have actually finally made a few friends woot woot) and going on the ocasiannl netlfix binge (Stranger Things anyone?!). I am also taking a yoga class! Yes, my school offers yoga as credt! Which is great because while it may not count towards my major, it will count towards credits I need to aquire to transfer! I am really excted to grow and push myself more, and taking time to improve on who I am.
I also have done some traveling over winter break! I went to Berlin, Germany and London, England on a 9 day solo trip and I had the best time ever! I am thinking about writing some posts about my experiences solo traveling.
If there are any topics you (if there are any of you still reading my blog haha) would like to see my write about please let me know! I am going to start making blogging on here a regular thing again!
Happy to be back